Its kind of funny. My
strong, uncanny hatred and repulsion I have felt towards the
outsiders and their way of living (people that aren't me, lol) is
beginning to transform into a beautiful selfless desire to be apart
of their world. Not only become a part of it, but contribute to it. I
want that to be where I find my most inner happiness and
accomplishment..the key to my personal gratification and satisfaction
with the life I have chose to live while I was here on Earth. The
fact that I had become the person I wanted to see in my world is the
most rewarding and satisfying feeling I could ever achieve. I could
honestly die happy & proud.